On the radio tonight.

My arm's on fire again.

My mind's gone wandering and the fragments are sharp tonight.

I've been fragile of late.

But I've been relying on him.

He says nothing solid as is his way with me in times of transition like I'm in now.

The other day (see my post: compressed)

For whatever reason, it felt (and still does somewhat) that even the maze of my mind and my own writings are ebbing.

So, in desperation, I've pulled on something unexpected.

I sang, in my car I sang, old hymns that I grew up with.

Then I pleaded and prayed and suddenly his presence was with me.

That was that day.

I've had other moments of fragmentation since then, but I've sung my way into his presence time after time.

One verse of as the deer and suddenly he's right there behind me.

Thank you lord.

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Psalm 73

21 When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,

22 I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.

24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.